surprise it's july [Liam]

A NEW FKN POST. BOUT TIME.
Thanks for still bothering to check this page, I'm getting a second wind after kind of a long inactive period (one that coincides exactly with my new job and its 9 hour days).

ok, so here's the plan:
I'm just going to start talking, and when i'm done i'll hit post. I need to friggin update already, and i'll be damned if i leave another entry on the draft pile.

-I just bought the new Deathcab for Cutie cd. I think that Deathcab sounds like John Cusack looks. Pensive, jilted but ever-romantic, aesthetically pleasing without effort (jen pointed out the whole thing to me of how cusack plays a very similar role in like every movie, even grosse point blank)

-My new job is definitely getting better. Rather, I'm getting better at it. I've started making stuff to print while at work, because owning stuff you made in big print form is awesome-- here's a couple examples:




(this one is actually a poster design for someone)

-I've decided for the moment to give my hair another stay of execution, but I remain in limbo regarding whether to go short or long. Here's what it looks like right now:


Also, I bought some new kicks. They look like this:



-I'm working on a script for a comic book one-shot, which hopefully will top anything I've done so far in terms of production values and understandable sequential storytelling. I've also started on a new strip, something like my old one but with color and more swear words. And in electronic form, of course. Don't worry about my recent writer's block, I've already got the first 4 or 5 strips mostly figured out-- early themes will include milpitas dim-sum, a cameo on macgyver, low-tech identity theft and hapa world domination.

-Hawaii was cool, but my plans to try and tackle my Hawaii expedition in a concise blog entry have failed at least twice now without ever making it to the "publish post" button. Suffice it to say I think that northern california is a really great place who will make someone very happy someday, but i think i might need to meet new places in the future. That doesn't mean I'm leaving in the near future by any stretch, but... well, if there's one thing i learned from my travels with my parents, it's that there are a lot of interesting places on this planet that would rock my face off if I didn't only know them in the context of a stressed out family expedition (I like Hawaii a lot, and of all the states in the union it's the one where I have the most family ties, but I am not necessarily talking about Hawaii here).

-I am REALLY fucking tired. Yet, I am sleeping less than any point in my life I can think of, with the exception of my freshman year of college. I can't shake the idea that having a job is a contract to give up a sizeable percent of our years on this earth in order to take part in the pleasant trappings of civilization (which in turn restricts our enjoyment of the remainder of time through its image of how we should live). I have never been a "carpe diem / seize the moment" type of guy, but I imagine myself being dead someday and looking back on this situation of trading one's finite days of existence for lawn chairs and new carpet, and finding it rather regrettable. None of this is new information in the least, but I think I've been doing a bit too many 20-hour days as a result. It's very clingy and un-zen, i know... but i can't really help it yet.
*The silver lining, if we can call it that...* (wink @ diocese folk) is that i have rediscovered the necessity of finding a job that truly makes me happy. This printing gig is a step in the right direction, certainly, but i'm pretty sure i need to get somewhere in storytelling / entertainment media before i can start sleeping decent nights again. If i have any luck on that front you'll be the first to know, naturally.

-Is anyone else noticing these bulleted entries getting longer? I am. Also, I seem to be getting angst all over the place. I've got enough text down to make a decent post, so here's the plan; i'm going to freestyle us a picture, then I'm going to hit post and go to bed. It's 1:56 right now, maybe I will finish by 2 am.

(2:24. and i have NO IDEA what it means. just doodling.)